i'm doing the best i can to put it back on track do. >> you get depressed? >> me? no. >> how do you take care of yourself? >> family and friends, the goodness of family. >> kindness. so you have no job and you're working for the trinidad medical -- >> i am not working for trinidad medical government. i have volunteered to bring cardiac surgery for the pediatric children more available. >> so you have no income? >> none. >> none at all? >> none. >> have to ask you this. michael jackson's children. >> yes. >> some of them are doing okay. some are suffering horribly. his girl tried to commit suicide according to reports. what do you say? they were there that night or that afternoon watching their father, if not dying, already dead. >> yeah. >> what do you say to them? >> oh, my gosh. the loss is monumental. i grieve for michael every day. and i grieve for those children.