exercise a way to express what i felt was my more genuine and authentic femininity. >> speaking of your other career as an actor, you said in a recent interview that hollywood has abandoned you, that you have lost your film family. what do you mean, abandoned? and is that why you became so devoted to painting? >> i had a massive stroke in inn 2001. i had a nine-day brain hemorrhage and a massive, very debilitating stroke. and i didn't recover quickly. it took years for me to recover. but when i couldn't come back because i couldn't remember my lines, i couldn't function for quite some time, i was pretty much shoved to the back of the line. once you're in the back of the line, getting back to the front of the line isn't about whether