to live through it, and there could very well be a suicide note posted online, at their home, that they sent to somebody else, in their pocket, you know, who knows. >> so if you can stay around, and cedric as well. i want toce get back to what ju happened in that courtroom and bring in msnbc legal correspondent lisa rubin, and msnbc contributor, and "new york times" investigative correspondent sue craig. both inside to watch the proceedings. let me ask you first, and obviously were you aware inside of what was happening outside? >> right at the end, chris, we became aware. so there was a little bit in the overflow courtroom that we had, in fact, picked a jury of six jurors and six alternates. there started to be murmuring that there wassome who outside the courthouse has essentially self-emulated. i was sent video from one of our