and they're kids. (kids laughing) (glass shattering) - what i really want in those moments is for him to just go away. like, retreat, retreat, you know? like, if you need to cool off, go downstairs. but that takes him admitting, like, "i'm having a problem right now, i need to go," and that's hard. (soft music) - at one point, amy had been, like, "listen, you gotta go." like, "you're out of control. your substance abuse is out of control. your behavior is unacceptable the way you're treating me and the children." it was kinda like make or break. (amy grunts) - he was imploding so much and full of so much self loathing that he was willing to throw away whatever. - go, amy. (soft music) (amy grunts)