By Paris Close Jan 16, 2021 Kobe Bryant and daughter Gianna Bryant almost a year ago. Taking to her Instagram Stories on Friday (January 15), Vanessa reflected on the “cluster of emotions” she’s been experiencing amid the loss, including suicidal thoughts, and urged fans to find their reason to live. "Let me be real - Grief is a messed up cluster of emotions. One day you're in the moment laughing and the next day you don't feel like being alive," she shared. "I want to say this for people struggling with grief and heartbreaking loss. Find your reason to live. I know it's hard."