I struggle to focus on anything. I cant work, I Cant, um, yeah, I Cant I Cant do anything. I Cant Feed myself or go and get a drink. Yeah, it really disables you completely. This is what was coming out, these blood clots, after i had to have, like, an operation. But yet, its still not enough to be able to stop you from using it, right . It does make you think. It does make you really consider it more. You think, right, i do need help with this now. And i do want to stop now. But then, a part of me thinks, whats when i do stop ketamine, what have i got . My lifes been about ketamine for the las...