So we kind of have come to accept that. we don t have any choice but to accept those terms. it is exhausting. just the anxiety in the depression. carrying a baby knowing what s about to happen. mentally it s challenging. and then my four-year-old, he doesn t see the same army all the time because a breakdown crying. why he s wiping my eyes. mommy, it s okay. so i know it s probably hard on him seeing me sad. deborah called when she finally made it to 37 weeks though they sat down with their son who to explain the baby s body had stopped working in the win he would not come. home instead someday they told him that they would all meet ....