When he and his dad surveyed the house. ransacked during the burglary. he had me go back and clean up all the jewelry that had been overturned and spilled out. what does that do to your mind. made me very numb. very numb. i just, it was a task. i did it. and then i went to bed. a way that had been hidden: looked like any suburban kid, but at home he understood the normal life to be the constant expectation of moments of terror. frequent unpredictable i think rages, abuse, a mother trying to protect him. he would want to beat you with a belt and she would try to prevent and it produce an ....