Emotions is emasculating. you said you were angry back in the day and all the rest of it. you probably have so many people, especially males that may be involved in violence or fighting, and may have issues going on and it s probably because they can t express themselves. they might be in a situation where there are down and depressed. back in the day when i was younger and i used to roll around in my area with a couple of my friends and things were not going great, i was listening to gigs every day on my stereo and i d be in this mindset and everyone in the car in the same mindset, none of us have money and we are all kind of down, and then you are on this bad path where anything can happen at any time and that s only because we are hurting within ourselves. it is the kind of one acceptable emotion of anger. when you are around that - and it is all you have ever known and you have grown up being around it you tend to follow it. especially when i left football, those were my friends. ....