the face by my dad was, whoa, there's a lot of hate there. that wasn't love. >> horrible. >> yeah, it sucked. you know, but -- >> why was he like that? why was he so angry? >> well, i think it was probably learned behavior. people are taught everything, you know. i think he probably learned it from someone else or his dad or someone in his family. i don't think that stuff comes out of the blue. you know, i think there was problems with probably substance abuse and stuff like that. you know, i don't really blame him for his actions. my dad, you know, i still love my dad. he's like the white fred sanford. you know, he was a great guy. we were buddies when i was growing up. i just think that like kids was an afterthought. it wasn't a priority. oh, [ bleep ], i got kids. you know, he didn't -- it didn't control his actions because -- >> did he ever apologize to you for hitting you? >> no. >> do you think he should? >> no.