there. that wasn't love. >> horrible. i hated reading it. >> yeah. it sucked, you know? >> why was he like that? why was he so angry do you think? >> i think it was probably learned behavior. people are taught everything, you know? he probably learned it from someone else or his dad or someone in his family. you know, i don't think that stuff comes out of the blue. i think there was problems with probably substance abuse and stuff like that. you know, i don't really blame him for his actions. you know, my dad -- you know, i still love my dad. he's like the white fred sanford. you know? he was a great guy. we were buddies when i was growing up. i just think that kids was an afterthought. it wasn't a priority. it was like, oh, [ bleep ], i've got kids. you know? it didn't control his actions. >> did he ever apologize to you for hitting you? >> no. >> do you think he should? >> no.