up doing the full 35. his only real inspiration comes from his family. >> my wife and kids, you know, they sticking by me right now. so who knows what's going to happen in the next 12, 13 years. it hurts, man. it's like it takes a part of my heart, man. it hurts bad. when i'm not seeing my shorties. she tries to bring them up as much as she can but the questions steady come, dad, when are you coming home? it's hard, man. run -- your kids growing up without a father, you know. no father figure. they wind up going out there on the street looking for a father figure and they run into the wrong crowd, you know. hey, they wind up being in here with me, you know. i can only tell them so much and try to teach them, hey, man, don't wind up here with me. you know, i'm not there, and that hurts, man. that hurts bad. i still cry sometimes, man.