>> do you feel that you're being blamed? >> yes, i do. >> do you feel that lionel's blaming you? >> that certainly does seem to be what happened when he first came out on television. >> and there are elements of lionel's book which do seem to say things about the pregnancy, about reluctance to breastfeed after the pregnancy, about joyce's state during early motherhood, which seem to indicate something was wrong with the mothering. now, this isn't the theme of the book, but it corresponds to the theme of so many questions from the media that have come along, all along the way. and i'm not saying you're asking these now. >> but at the same time, lionel asks a lot of questions about himself, about what kind of father he was, about his own thoughts and maybe his own mistakes. i mean, one of the first places he looks is right in the mirror. >> but if he feels that way about himself, it's fine, if he