comedy and jokes as a defense mechanism. but really deep down inside they really want to get something off their chests. they have issues just like everyone else. >> such was the case with desiree stalbird, an inmate we met at san antonio's bexar county jail. drugs led her to a variety of crimes and frequent stays. >> my meth addiction. that's what got my kids taken away. i love the feel of making dope. i love selling drugs. it's like -- when i cook a batch, make a batch of dope, to me it gives me -- like when a person has a baby for the first time, the feeling's like, wow. i created that. i miss it. i miss the smell. but i also miss the smell of my kids. i have twin boys. they were taken when they were 4