sense of danger and there isn't, so, therefore, that pain signal continues. for isn't, so, therefore, that pain signal continues.— signal continues. forjan, the -rocess signal continues. forjan, the process has _ signal continues. forjan, the process has transformed - signal continues. forjan, the process has transformed her| process has transformed her life. i process has transformed her life. . , . process has transformed her life. ., , , process has transformed her life. ., , i, life. i was and properly still am, to some _ life. i was and properly still am, to some degree, - life. i was and properly still. am, to some degree, grieving the person that i was. because i am a shell of the person that i am a shell of the person that i used to be. my life revolves around the pain and the medical appointments and ordering prescriptions and it doesn't matter how hard i try. or how much i wish sure pray, it isn't all most likely isn't going to change. i wish i could turn the clock back. but i also know that i didn't do this. i have asked this question because is it something i did? and it isn't anything i did. millions of share jen's _