ottumwa, iowa, when i was 11 years old, the first time i drank a couple beers, i felt good about myself, very powerful. i didn't think about the bad stuff. i liked it. it was a cure for what was ailing me. >> larry: how long before it affected your life? >> i started getting arrested when i was 15 or 16, and, but, you know, where i grew up that was just sort of part of life. i didn't think it was a problem because i didn't use drugs. i didn't even smoke pot until i was out of high school. later in life when i discovered cocaine i discovered that's it. that's what i need. >> larry: cocaine an addendum to alcohol? did you do both? >> i did until the end then i just quit alcohol, just focused on cocaine because that was what made me feel the best. >> tom actually has one of the most traumatic stories when you were locked in the bathroom led ready to cut your eye. >> i had been up for five days. was my usual thing with cocaine. i was looking at my eyes. i noticed there was skin on the