inspiration, it's a cliche but somebody said if you want to get all the air out of a glass what do you do? there's no way to do it but with fill it with something else and that something else is joy of living, reading being creative, know you're doing the right thing and that got me to thinking. >> why didn't the joy of success work? >> i don't know. >> one doesn't know, does he? >> no. and you know with alcoholism you tend to drink because you're angry or you drink because you're sad now or you drink because you're just so happy you want to celebrate. >> i have a friend who says alcohol is my prozac. >> yeah, yeah, but unfortunately it's debilitating and prozac is not. >> are you completely sober or have you reached the point where