home. i get to go home today, back to l.a. to see my daughter. they don't. i am having trouble understanding that, comprehending that, and feeling a little guilty. i have heard heroic acts. i am not processing, did i do enough? i am going through some guilt now. did i help enough people. everybody was screaming. and yelling. i didn't know what to do. we didn't know where the shooter was. we thought he was going to jump over the fence. we thought there could be, two, three shooters. at one point, i was running, and there was a break after the first 30 seconds of shooting and i ran and this heroic young hispanic man was, like, get in this room. i go in this room and i just