if you will. i personally didn't feel what i felt after the fact. >> i can imagine. in the moment, you're doing what you're supposed to do. where has your head gone in the speculation about sheriffs that ran in, didn't run in, what they should have done, what's cowardice, what's bravery? what's perspective on that for people like us who don't understand being here, don't understand the job? >> all i can say, chris, is that from the stories we got, the two officers that responded, that were inside, our coral springs officers, officer fernandez and sergeant koz, at first glance they thought maddy was dead. something made them turn around and elicit some kind of response. when they did this, they summoned a nearby bso s.w.a.t.