because what you see is someone who seems successful. he has prestige and he's spoken and everyone is raving about him. underneath it might be this was depleting for him. i'm speculating. i don't know him. i didn't examine him. many time when you find people that's larger than life, there's an outer self that people are impressed with and there's this inner self that might be full of self-doubts or might have ambivalent feelings about what's happening. when you look at the gap between what the world expects and wants and what you're feeling, that is where the trouble starts. that stress, here's what happens when you get stressed and anxioused and depressed. your precortal front is taken