straight towards eternal damnation. >> and john list was coming under intense pressure from another corner as well. >> john list had a financial problem. there is no question about that. he had mortgaged the house to the hilt. he had trouble keeping jobs. he had been unemployed for long periods of time. he also had a problem, obviously, dealing with people. it's one of the reasons he would lose his job. he just wasn't a people person. he would work in finance and where a personality was a necessary part of your job and he couldn't function. >> john list's financial problems were putting an enormous strain on him, a strain later reflected in the written confession he left at the murder scene. >> i wasn't earning anywhere near enough to support us, list wrote. everything i tried seemed to fall to pieces. true, we could have gone bankrupt and may gone on welfare. >> apparently, he didn't feel he