and it helped me realize who i am or who i want to be. just comfortable in my own skin. i guess my biggest fear would be someone killing me. to keep it on the real 100%, i mean things can happen up there. and they can happen pretty quickly. i want to be ready for the worst and try to make it the best i can. period. so i don't want to go in there rubbing people the wrong way. i don't want to go in there with something to prove. >> right. >> get on in the back or wherever you want to go. >> so i'm just doing me and i'd rather be happy in a situation and make it that way. than grovel and drown in my sorrow, and not move forward. i'm not going to move forward unless i'm happy with myself. >> a few days later, michelle culberson received a letter from her former cellie. >> i have a letter here from stacie. want me to read it? hey, pretty lady, how are things going in county? i'm doing all right today. i miss you so much michelly. she called me michelly.