we'll see what the next step is. you're waiting to be heard. if you get found guilty and they give you seg time you'll be back on idu. some day, we'll talk about this and it will make sense to both of us. right now, it just doesn't fit all together. but that's okay. take care of yourself. >> you too, matias. man, i didn't know it was going to get that heated, man. didn't know it was going to get that heated. i almost went there. things are a little bit different with me now. i'm no longer on rtu as a result of my excessive behaor, you want to call it. i dropped the ball. i don't like it because i disappointed myself and i disappointed my supporters. i had a lot of people there in my corner, but because i somewhat relapsed, if that's what you want to call it, they're kind of like just playing with me right now. and they have every right to because these people have given me something that no one has