does that memory ever fade for you? is it there constantly or can you park it somewhere? >> it doesn't fade. but i have parked it. tom, in life we have to go on. and put it behind us and be grateful and every once in a while something reminds me of it or i hear from an old friend who calls up and asked me why i voted wrong and they never call me and tell me i voted right. so think about it. but what i really think about is the people that i had the honor of serving with. some of the gutsiest, most patriotic, most wonderful people i've ever known in my life. they're my dearest and best friends. >> and with us now is colonel jack jake cobbs, retire colonel and analyst and medal of honor recipient. hearing john mccain talk about