>> where's ashleigh? she'll be coming out. you know, so she'll be coming with somebody. ashleigh was gonna be coming out. >> i drove to my mom's house crying, thinking, you know, i let everybody down. i knew the house was gone, i knew the -- the horses were gone. i knew anything that was left there was gone. and -- and, you know, i -- i pulled in and i said, "it's gone. everything's gone." >> and i looked at his face and he had been crying. i could tell he had tears. his cheeks were wet. and he said we lost everything. >> i was the one that was saying, you know, it's gonna be good. it's gonna be fine. you know, i've lived through 20 of these. i'm the man of the house. you know? and what decision did i make that was the wrong decision? i shoulda started sooner to try and get the horses out. i left. you don't realize what it feels like to leave something behind. something -- a living being behind. >> and at that point all i cared about was that he was okay.