as you did so beautifully in the piece about sitting on sunday in the pew and how you felt when they were wanting the hive. >> i think we as catholics have taken a lot of sort of body blows over the decades. i mean, these reports come out over and over again. but what happened as a result, you know i would take issue is a catholic is allowed to do that. but the pope here, it was not that god heard the cries of the victims. it is that an attorney general in pennsylvania dug deeply into the church to uncover this. so i found myself sitting in the pews and wondering, you know, why am i still in this church? a church in which i was born. a church that represents more than my faith. it really represents a big part of my identity.