ing up for me. couldn't sleep well. just anxiety and everything going on. >> all i could think of was, you know, that i wanted to be able to sit down across from you and, you know, i -- i've never really thought that i needed to forgive you. the way i looked at that incident, it was like i had spent my entire life up to that point training for that, you know, that single moment, and in a way, you'd been doing the same thing. and i knew i didn't know you. you didn't know me. so in many ways, it didn't seem personal. so why did it happen? you know, how did -- how did it get to that point? i think we were like a culmination of our experiences meeting in that, you know, behind that house, in the