you were taken with your driver. they wanted to go public. you decided it would be better for your long term survival if this was not reported as a news story. why? >> i actually when they asked me to do that, i did say it should go public in the videotape at that point. these are all -- there were three forced videotapes and this was the second one. and i initially told the captors and i didn't think it should go public. kristen made a separate decision on her own to not go public here. so i did say please ask journalists to write about us. >> and i could tell from the way he delivered that line that it was not coming from him. the decision to keep it private was not one we took lightly. we made that decision every week based on what was going on. >> meanwhile back home, you're grappling with these demands from the taliban to ransom $15 million. >> and prisoners. >> and you were not ruling out