you're trying to deduce from that particular -- >> it's in your book. >> -- point in time. >> it's in your book. >> now, lawrence, i know what's in my book. now, let me ask you a question. did you expect every black student and every black college in america to be out there in the middle of every fight? the answer is no. so for you to say why was i sitting on the sidelines, i think that that is an inaccurate deduction that you are trying to make. you didn't know, lawrence, what i was doing with the rest of my life. you didn't know what my family situation what may have been. maybe, just maybe i had a sick relative, which is why i might not have been sitting in or doing the freedom rides. so what i'm saying, lawrence, is with all due respect, my friend, your deduction is incorrect and it's not logical. okay? >> well, i gave your book a fair reading, and i didn't read anything about a sick friend. what i read was a deliberate decision to not participate in the civil rights movement and the civil rights protests, and i