just put it under the person, this is my son. how am i supposed to look at that? am i supposed to feel the same way? yes, i'm supposed to feel the same way. but he's my son, so, no, i'm not supposed to feel the same way. i don't know. it's been a long road. and i can't turn my back on him. he's mine. >> while christopher was not always close to his father growing up, abuse was never part of their history together. but the ugly tentacles of child abuse stretch throughout limon. it's home to both abusers and the abused. >> i don't feel physical pain. it doesn't register with me. when i get hit, somebody hits me here, i become infuriated and all i want to do is rip their [ bleep ] out. >> i went through some pretty bad abuse as a kid.