decided, almost everybody, save two of us, decided to make their way back into the ship and try and find a life boat. i didn't think that going back inside of the ship was logical. because it was almost like going into a coffin because you could get trapped inside. >> i think the most terrifying moment was when emily got on to the life boat and i was left behind and i thought i don't know if i can do this without her. she was, you know, she's my planning partner. we brain storm these ideas together. and i didn't want to do it without her. and i felt alone and confused. so i told the crew member, no, no, i'm going to get on this life boat. my wife is here. and so she let me on to the boat. >> when benjie popped his head into the first life boat that we