Felipe Posada He works six to seven days a week, but when he goes home for dinner with his family, Thomas Yadegar, MD, takes a few minutes to gather himself before going inside. Sometimes he breaks down. The 20 physicians he leads at the ICU at Providence Cedars-Sinai Tarzana Medical Center in L.A. and West Hills Hospital & Medical Center confide in him that they too “stop on their drive home and just cry,” he says. They all have nightmares. “I don’t see how any human who has gone through and witnessed what we have could not be changed dramatically and to the core,” he says. He hasn’t had a second to prepare for how over 14 months of watching COVID-19 patients die will affect him going forward.