>> i don't actually -- i don't even -- i don't even have a well defined enough cosmology of a sense of what's going to happen. i want to talk about that, you know, gifts of god, what punishments of god are not gifts. i'm quoting tolkien there. there's not me. that's tolkien because in the mythos, the one god within the tolkien mythos. >> the elves live forever. >> elves live forever. they are part of the world. >> whom do we know who's an expert on all things "lord of the rings"? folks, when i spent my entire teenage years reading all of tolkien, not just the hobbit and "lord of the rings." i'm talking smith of wooten neighbor and leith by anythingle. i knew i was preparing myself for something important. why else would i ignore all my class work, abandon sports and achieve a paleness i have yet to shake off? >> your mom studied theater. wanted to be an actress. >> she was going to carnegie. >> was that something that --