so we just had to wait. >> we understand your re-integration with your family, what makes that initial communication with family so kind of fraught, so difficult? >> yeah, anderson, the term i use, it is almost like sensory overload, emotional shock. it was a lot to deal, with, just that change in the department. the family members which compromise the most important part of your life. you haven't seen somebody for five and a half years, since i was there, i had a little boy, ten, then he was 16. and someone i didn't recognize, all of those things together are