that i used to live, kharkiv, and there was an explosion in the center of the city. and i know for sure that some of them are not alive anymore, and i don't have a connection with some more of my friends now. but i really hope that it's a connection difficulties and they're still alive. >> you know, it's difficult for most people to understand. i'm sure before this happened it would be difficult for you to understand as well. you said to us that you had a normal happy life with a studio, a business, friends and family and then all of a sudden within the blink of an eye nothing is normal. your entire life has been uprooted. you've been fleeing from city to city. you've gone from kharkiv to kyiv where you spent six days because you were afraid to go outside. you watched explosions from a friend's apartment. you ran again. this & now you are near odesa. what has this all been like? >> well, it's a nightmare