any other way out that he had created this this enormous belief system in this this structure in this people that were totally totally committed to him personally. he was there, god. we had a meeting in the top floor of the warehouse where we always had our meetings. head said he wants to hear from each individual if they have any reservations about suicide as an exit. we would be taking a strong barbiturate and i would basically put our vehicles to sleep. it was a gentlest way he could think about doing it. there are some tears shed by some individuals. definitely who i think had some real difficulties. with contemplating it, and i said, wow, that's huge. i mean dough, even said he's only been here two weeks. and you know, i'm talking about