loneliness and the depression around it because it is lonely if you're surrounded by people but you're not really surrounded by anyone. >> george always struggled with his sexuality. at young age he thought he might be bisexual. >> i remember being poolside with rob two thirds through the tour and rob suddenly asked me, do you think that george is gay? i said well, yes, i believe he is gay. i found out as the tour rolled along that george was very unhappy and it became obvious because he was so in the closet. >> as a gay man holding on to that secret and everything fame can i only imagine the pressure with that. >> he was keeping this deep dark secret but then, he falls in love.