going to hear some things we don't want to hear. and you hold on tight. >> we've been there a couple weeks now and kind of got used to the routine. it's -- there's always unexpected testimony and gut wrenching stuff that we try to protect ourselves against if we have to leave we leave. >> yeah. >> but it's -- >> they have an overflow courtroom so if the testimony gets to be too much, but we still want to hear and see what's going on, we can step into another courtroom and watch it from there. so, you know, we do have that advantage, where -- because we're not supposed to cry, we're not supposed to show emotion. you know, he has all the rights. we have none. so that's been difficult. some of the things we hear on a daily basis when we hear a about somebody being found in row 13, we know who that is. and we know the family and we