by choice. in south africa, you get that choice. you have emotional, you have procedural, and practical here. the emotional is what we just heard. the procedural, in south africa, defendants almost take the stand. and when they do, they go in early in the case. not what we do here in the united states. he doesn't have to take the stand. he really is the only one who knows what happened there. so while he is laying out the groundwork for i have a vulnerability, i'm afraid of this, my mother kept a pistol in a bag in her pillow every night -- >> that also gives the defense all sorts of territory to cup at him? >> correct. it gives the defense to say this is a reasonable amount of action based on fear. it gives the prosecution the ability to question about those actions. >> it's emotional to listen to