was concerned his parents would be -- he's be in trouble or something to that effect. let me loop back because i think -- >> or -- >> go ahead, go ahead. >> i was going to say he seemed to be worried that they thought he was dead. that was my interpretation from one of the accounts. so it's typically when you're thinking of others that's what helps you in a survival situation. >> keep going, stay strong. >> get through it yeah. >> stay the course. >> exactly. any loved one. >> what about all that raw fish? he said that once he ran out of food and water, obviously that's when you start to panic. once he started putting some of his dirtier clothes in the water, fish would swim through his clothing and that's when he started grabbing and eating this fish. what does that do to your body to your system? >> depending on the fish what he did again is plausible. you know when you're at sea that long a microenvironment forms under the boat and the fish will do exactly what he said. so that sounds plausible to me. depending on the larger fish,