comprehending what really could be? >> i had a pretty good idea of what it would look like. i've been in that conference room many times with him and knew how it was going to be set up and where everyone was going to be sitting. and i wasn't surprised i didn't hear back from him. >> i read his wife texted is he really gone. how do you even begin to answer that question. >> i had spoken with nick's wife just previously to that. and she told me it was assumed that anyone who did not come back or was not on the buss was not coming back at all.