>> i guess i kept looking at michael and just noticing that he just didn't seem to have a lot of feeling about him. i guess i kept looking for some emotion that would let me know something about what was going on. >> michael had an amazing capacity to compartmentalize things so that he didn't bring his grief into the office. i don't know what he did with it. >> i didn't think i was going to get convicted. it was going to be a longish trial but then it would be revealed that there can be no there there. there's nothing to convict. there's nothing hard. there's nothing that says look, this guy did it. there's nothing beyond a reasonable doubt. and i couldn't imagine what could possibly be manufactured to make 12 people think that i killed my wife. >> watch cnn films "an unreal dream" at 9:00 p.m. eastern on