of all of your life? >> being put down. being rejected. being judged. >> have people made fun of you? >> oh, yeah, growing up from starting from 6 to about even in college. >> what would they say? >> some of them would make fun of my eyes, which now is, like, funny or back then, 6 years old it wasn't. it destroyed myself esteem. >> have you ever had a girlfriend? >> i had one girlfriend two and a half years. >> have you had many physical relationships? >> define physical. like? >> have you had sex? >> ummm. i have not had sex. i've had sexual encounters but no real intercourse. >> how does that make you feel? >> it still to this day even really, really hard to talk