to her myself to be a real american patriot. but i don't like the direction that my country is going. all right, i will let my young with cheaper. yeah. because it was the room with earlier full then kind of overwhelmed with emotion. started shaking in bed and as i went to laboratory a few moments ago, i get sick. wow. going to the camp. it makes it like putting in a face with a name. it's no longer, you know, old reels that you see on t v. programs and documentaries, you know, written by some guy who wasn't there on a page from history book. it's real. mm. i'm is doing what you can to fix the world . the best of your ability is that just starts with you and the way that you live your life. you are, which what you're doing now is to coin laundry, going back and fixing some of the wrongs you can at one point, stop it. that's enough. things need to be different, and they do more than 1500 years when prison, a small fortress their dest. same was worst of all the groups of prisoners, about $500.00 from them were tortured to death. here most others perish after the deportation to the concentration camps. 1500 people of the jewish faith died there . i found it hard to believe from the nazis were really avid in real getters, transit hands as well. they were coming merely coming in to wait for the training to know that he was on the dock house. so the more house and stuff, and i was just curious on their voyage, what you wrote in the book, the guest book, what did you write? i'm sorry. i wanted to come to room. a theme is a theme, judaism, and play with the way that we count the numbers are the exactly i wanted to remain team was that the more sure where the body is a person, there's torture for story. starting at the end of 42 dead bodies were cremated in terms crematorium in the form of the jewish ghetto. a divine letters, the letter is age off the 2nd letter age or his age letter, a red circle around it. i mean, i'm still not gonna lie for still afraid of a large group of black people. and i know that's still a little bit crazy, but i'm still very hypervigilant as well. there's to certain things that i don't feel that i can turn my back on because i mean, if it's happened more than a couple times, you learn from your mistakes. i'll admit that i do have certain animosity within me . but when i would be asked if i forgiven the scanning guys to try to take my life, i would say it's the best thing that happened to me because it gave me life at time me to value life in the sanctity of life. we walked through a 500 year long tunnel. there were several spots and we walk through or seem to drop and get very, very cold. there's almost like there was electricity in the air. the air on my body would stand up and just to take it into almost everyone that walk through that donald didn't walk back. there's a lot to take in there. i 7. yeah, i don't even know what's happening. if you were going to die and you knew it. there's something known as the martyrs. prayer. ok. here is the lord your god. the lord is one. that is something that i'm sure there's always more than one it would be a torture has to be laid down, not knowing if it's going to happen. your brain tries to rationalize how, what's happening isn't happening. right? it's somehow going to live. so now i'm going to survive and from fights you've been in attacks. you've gone through. i'm sure your brain and the exam. will that one? yeah. are we close off the outside world? the turn in this isn't happening to me, and this is a real, i'm going to live through that way. got to be fine. your brain is so arrogant. the one thing that it can't say is, i'm not going to survive this in a moment of peace that hit me when i was attacked by the skins. just when i came to the ultimate understanding conclusion that i wasn't going to make it out of it. and then it was just like my brain just relaxed. really, you know how it is, tuition like that. you just want to go home, right? you just want your bed and your mom. when you go, you want to go where you feel safe. at that moment i did not feel safe and i knew enough cops that were involved in the white power movement or not you're that they're not the best people to go to that kind of situation. no, i mean that whole part of central florida as we know most of the sheriff's part over in the class and probably still off. i went to one point after i was out of the skinheads for quite a while i, i was arrested and thrown in jail for what kevin does best, being a smart drunk and not listening to the authority. i have always had a problem with authority. and i wound up in jail for a long time, but enough time. and i still had not covered up all the way to the tooth. and one of the tattoos i had was quite vulgar in quite a form. and there are symbols that anybody in the widespread, the world knows it. so he sees in his way, knows what it means. it was not anything. i still believe, of course, but it was still on me and i couldn't make it go away. and i wound up in a cell block with someone from the area in brotherhood who had just violated parole and was about to be before the judge to be re sense to go back to prison. most likely can. i've never been more afraid for myself because i knew i was going to tell the truth and i was going to say my east and let him know that that's not who i am any longer. and i don't agree with you. and it was honestly probably the scariest 48 hours until that until i was moved and became a trustee and was moved to a different cell block. since i was a skinhead, i'd never been, i hadn't been that scared in 15 years. but it brought it down to know that i didn't cover of the tattoos because i wanted to remember, you know, how stupid i was. ah, and i were them so that i didn't forget not about anybody else, but so i didn't forget. but after that experience, i felt it was time to not hurt anybody else with the images that i had on my body. and it wasn't good about me. it was about other people and about sending a message that i didn't believe in. ha, so it can be very hard to walk away from your past canada that really had a home. and that was when i truly started thinking about the future, which was something i have really never thought about. i kept living in the past and that was like one of the clarifying moments. knowing that moving forward, i still have to have a life. oh my god. we'll meet but all the way through the tunnel in round at the corner and headed down the little hill and i saw 3 crosses. there was a tour group and the woman was speaking in english, made mention that this is where the soldiers lie. when this was still just a military installation and use this embankment for target practice, but after the 3rd reich had taken over it and occupied the high and was using the camp, ah, as a transit camp and a death camp. that's where these people have locked. and been executed or walked in beyond ah, it was emptying. i don't else describe it. it took what little bit of. okay, feeling i hadn't sodomy and stripped it out and let me know that it's real. none of those people came back. and this is where they met her. it is very true for those who weren't tortured, of course, rex, sure to hear if you'd like to keep your chin in legally fin. mean, every person that wound up there wasn't there for anything they did besides being themselves, being people of the earth, living their lives. it's a heavy burden to carry, you know, knowing that i preach the same nonsense to lot of people. it convinced a lot of people that it was right. sure, sure. sure. we try to do right from the sport. oh, well this is a huge, huge to there are a few places at john and i had stopped in john brought some, some stones and i had asked him to bring me, ah, from jerusalem. because i thought drew's on being the holy city. ah. and he always place to the jewish faith. she now these people made it there, count. she was right around the corner. many memories before blessing and always be remembered. ah walked through all the gray stones and i shall only one brace down. it didn't have a rock on and made sure i put a rock there so everybody knows that they're not allowing me on anything. it really hit me is about a 3rd of the more just numbers they didn't had names. so it's, there was bodies in the ground and it makes you think about their entire communities and entire families. entire villages are completely wired down. there's nobody to remember. nobody tell anybody that ah oh, service reminder. oh, all the lights that were smell is horrible. place where the horrible camps around europe. no the stones in jerusalem on a rock only in quite the day. john, it has once you realize that hatred is just fear of the unknown and fear of yourself. i it doesn't take long to want to see the truth and want to see humanity for what it's worth along his voyage of also come to the conclusion that there are more bad people that are good people in the world. and i was one of them. i, i can't, i can't undo what i've done. i can't do what i said, but i can try to stop it. and i can do my best to try to educate people, to, to the truth that ignorance and fear breed hatred. and we don't have to be afraid. oh ah, i think the other one majority, all ukrainians will actually reconcile reconcile themselves to pace. i don't, i couldn't resist them being held hostage by a phone. i would try to do that. i will resist any kind of compromise any, any, any, a mix up with look forward to talking to you all. that technology should work for people. a robot must obey the orders given by human beings, except where such order is a conflict with the 1st law show your identification. we should be very careful about our personal intelligence at the point, obviously is to great trust, rather than fear a job with artificial intelligence. real, somebody with a robot protective phone existence. with a mr. kevin kept some of the stones that he had and i asked, as we discussed, did what to do with those stumps. he said that if you ever visit a place like this again, he wanted to have so i was trying to get him to go to ashes bar. why exactly auschwitz? well places are a 1000000 people died there, no 1000000 100000. they know to know would you be willing to be awake at quarter to 5 in the mornings, long for for a you said all the places you can visit do the expansions for a little bit ago. i'm serious. i did take a moment. the park lunch is to say and try and catch my breath. breaking down, realizing where i was going in the brain surgery was easier than this one is sure. as we crossed to the entry, josh waits. kevin fell on my shoulder a series so so, so in just a thought today raised our kinetic kersats symbol. mm hm. disease is you're walking through with and we came to the destroyed gas chambers and it was quite literally the end of july. that was where the railroad tracks are coming to that line was part of the spiritual journey that i've been on for 20 years. kevin, from 1st part of our national anthem, thinking about truce or dream of 2000 years. ah, i, [000:00:00;00] i go down here and walk down. there's one building standing. it's the last building, remaining for those centers, which is where we were yesterday. everything you see up and down this road on both sides for people that were sent here from there. and so when you said yesterday, like the numbers were off, they came here. i would say you're right, ah, why this is close. this goes on for ever, ever. answer your call. yeah. we get this money, thousands of people, please maintain silence here. remember their suffering and show respect for the memory. i, i don't i oh, i won the highest the was. why did i a punk little 70? no kids deserve an extra chance to go to the guys timbers me. busy ah me, i use i use, ah, a even dessert and probably one of them with my changing events in my life. i'm not gonna take a long time to take all the sense. i feel a little cleaner inside. and again, i have all this emotion, all this hate, and i don't want it to be because i don't have anybody to 8, i was angry. i have no place to project that. i've never in my life had to process something. i've always been sorry. hey, okay, let's move on. next thing, this is something bigger than me. beyond me, it's gonna take me a long time to understand i think more people should come with and i think about going to trial and how french so call friends because you all were tight. you believe the same thing. you hate each other's bad brothers. all of you were brainwashed, but they were brainwashed where they were ready to kill a brow them because it was a jew. i don't know where the education would make a difference, but the most would drop out from school. they were interested in education. in the end result was you dying, winding up at your own end of the line. it was an end of the line for you. but it was the in the line for us to you mom and dad and your brothers. what we went through allies were turned upside down to one it ever again. i can't think of anything more than the family. they have to go through something like that. if i ever apologize to, you know, with john story is a story of ho, the story. victory, the whole story of his life. this is just one little segment of his life. the whole story of john's life is amazing. and i, i think people need to know what a great man and how many great things he's done from where we came and to where he is and whatever i can do to help him. i would do the families i've that are either going through to have a child like i was mostly a jewish family, but say like a like cannon. we have a child is involved in a racist organization. what do i do? answer is always love them. make them feel like they have a place to come back to many times over the years people have asked me, why do you think you survived? and i definitely know that i survive because god decided it wasn't my time to go. and i've tried ever since then to, to try to improve myself as a human being. and when i came back to society and be ready and available, just to talk to people about the ability and the power of change, it is possible to change this possible to come somebody else. and i know some of the people that were involved to my attack, a change for the better kind of some of more. let's stay the same. can't really expect society to change. it begins with you. ah. the stone sat in the, in the ground in all the pathways through a it started with a ah ah ah ah ah needs to come to russian state will never. i've stayed on the northland scheme with 55 with will ban in the european union. the kremlin community up machine, the state aren't russia today and split from ortiz spoke neck, given our video agency, roughly all band to on youtube with . mm, ah, the headlines this, our a links document claim that nato, they're providing p intelligence. the key about the movement, the russian forces. so the crime lab fee could conduct attack from 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