and what she was doing on tv, the only thing i could do to collect my thoughts was to go and walk among the finest men and women on this earth. and you can always find them. because they're in arlington national cemetery. went over there for an hour and a half, walked among the stones some of whom i put there because they were doing what i told them to do when they were killed. i'll end with this. in april of 2015 while still on active duty i went to the dedication of the new fbi field office in miami. and it was dedicated to two men who were killed in the a firefight in miami against drug traffickers in 1986. a guy by the name of grogan and duke. grogan almost retired, 53 years