issues that were clinical, that were deep. >> verbally, my mother, my dad are on me constantly. >> your dad too? >> oh, yeah. and it just never let up. >> when you were younger, did you find yourself trying to get away from them in your head? >> yeah, naturally. and it got to me. >> he was doing the hungry eye in san francisco, and later that night jonathan winters left his hotel room and the police found him on the wharf. he was climbing the mast of a ship yelling that "i'm the man in the moon." >> i was in the middle of a breakdown no question about that. >> how do you know when you're in the middle of a breakdown? >> well, you begin to hallucinate and seeing things that -- and not boozing. i wasn't drinking. >> you know, a lot of people say well, jonathan, how do you feel? i say, man, i'm out, i'm out. that's what counts, you know. because when you're in that hole, is it sunny today? stay back in there! >> if you're going out on stage and you're being jonathan winters, and you're being really