that's because i -- i started becoming religious just before i left and, you know, there from what i heard, islamicly that is all allowed. >> your family have made an appeal for you to come home. they are pleading with the british government to allow you to come home. do you have a message for your family. >> just keep trying to get me back. i really don't want to stay here. >> the council on foreign relations, author of "ashley's war" she's also visited syria five times since the summer of 2017 so, gail, good to have you back. welcome. >> nice to see you. >> listening to -- these words from secretary pompeo saying this alabama woman, isis bride