more from their relationship. an assertion cavallucci neither confirms nor denies. but she does say despite giving dowda a black eye, dowda fought back. >> she's quick on her feet. trying to knee me. trying to gouge my eyeball. i know she had a good batch of my hair in her hand. >> i know i got hits in, too. when i fight i black out. i have bad ptsd i think it's what it's called. i have blackout when i fight and i don't mean to. whenever someone hits me it triggers in my head, you're being abused, it's a life or death situation, you have to react. >> where does the ptsd come from? >> i've been abused a lot throughout my life. so it just -- a lot of triggers. >> dowda says she has had a troubled childhood that includes time in group homes, sexual abuse, being a victim of human trafficking. she says at age 13, she began to cope by cutting herself. >> it was like the adrenaline rush that it gave me was better