there are 13 folds that get it to that position. and at folds of honor our commitment is to take care of families like colleen by educating the spouses and children of the fallen and disabled soldiers. it is humbling and an honor to be here. this is what memorial day is really all about. >> colleen, we want to give you an opportunity to remember your husband, jeremy. the good things about him. i want to hear his story. he was killed during heavy fire fight with the enemy? >> he was. he was killed during his eighth deployment with first battalion regimen. he had been gone about three months when we got the news. and there is not a day i don't really think about it. >> did you just feel like your world was crashing down? i can't even imagine the pain. >> it does. your world just kind of ends. everything you knew ceases to exist. but we had a seven month old