>> together, estrada's sentences almost guarantee that the only way he will ever leave prison is in a box. >> the first murder case i got 36 years for, the second one i got 48. so now i'm doing 84 years. i'd like to sit here and blame the officers for not coming in and intervening. you know, i didn't have to choke the dude for six minutes. >> though estrada could be spending the rest of his life in this super max penitentiary, he isn't losing sleep over it. >> is there a bible down there? you read that much? >> no, it's just there for good luck. at peace? i'm at peace with myself. i have to be. there's a certain time you have to look at reality and say, this is home. this is home. this is home. you can't focus on what's going on out there. can't let it get to you. just have to forget about the outside world and understand that this is a world now. and this is reality. this is home. i can sit here and say, i did what i had to do.